Find the beautiful
Yes, that...
is my theme for this year.
Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Finding the beautiful... it is very present in the external.
But as I navigated just how ugly it was to go through this cancer thing, how easy it was for people to forget that it is my battle, and I had to find myself repeatedly trying to forgive... I lost my place. And I was so hurt by people that I am close to (who are ashamed of my diagnosis, who couldn't/can't talk to me about what was/is happening, who took things from me with out asking, who made things harder for me....) that I forgot to stop and find the beautiful.
So, fuck the folks who take away from this... they can live with their choices.
And I am so lucky, because I have people in my life who can help me do that. So, I have to let them in and help me see what I need to see.
I, am so excited. Because, you see, this year, 2015, I get to find the beautiful.
Yes, that...
is really my theme for this year.
