I went to visit Josef this morning, and I have to say that I should not stay too long when I am alone. With hormones that are wacky, it makes for some very tearful times. My sister in law came with me today and stayed for about an hour, so I wasn't all alone for the 4 hours I stayed there. I am sure the whole experience must have been a bit traumatic for her. I am sure that my tearfulness wasn't helped by the fact that the nurse told me it would be at least a week before he is getting enough food to even think about getting his feeding tube taken out! Which means it will be at least that long before he can come home. I was hoping he could come home before that... However, the good news is that he is getting 3cc's added to his meals every twelve hours, so by the end of tonight, theoretically, he should be getting 12cc's, and as follows:
12/28 - 18cc's
12/29 - 24cc's
12/30 - 30cc's
12/31 - 36cc's
01/01 - 42cc's
01/02 - 48cc's
01/03 - 54cc's
Which is when he reaches the limit of food he can take before he can get the tube out. His bilirubin level is better and if he improves enough tomorrow, then he can get one of the two bili-lights he has on him removed.
Dare I even begin to have hope that he can do this any faster? There are some times when this just seems so incredibly hopeless, but I am hoping and praying that those are just wacky hormones talking!
I will take today as a crying day, tomorrow, I will start back on doing some work related things, maybe that will help me keep my mind off things related to my son!